Hey y’all! I know, I know “sis where have you been?!” listen, I been around trying to get myself together just like everyone else. 2021 is here and I am so grateful that I made through that year we will not EVEN mention okay?. I have set new goals but this time, I am doing something different. I wanted to be realistic about my goals for one, and two I wanted to challenge myself to actually go after the goals I set. Setting goals for 2021 as a whole wouldn’t work for me. I know this because I procrastinate. I can see myself now telling myself I have time so, I am setting monthly goals: a financial goal, a spiritual goal as well as natural goals. I am not doing this alone though, I have a good friend that is doing the same thing. We agreed that every month we would sit and go over our goals and where we are with them for accountability purposes. For January, my financial goal include: creating a budget spreadsheet. My spiritual goal includes having a steady prayer life. Not going a day without saying something to the good Lord. My natural goals include getting back to blogging which I am obviously doing with this post (with more to come!!). Another one, to find a fitness class or join a gym which I am happy to announce that I have! Just joined a gym yesterday and I have a meeting with a trainer this Thursday!!. My last natural goal includes starting to study for the LSAT. Yes its official. Ima go and do it. I am tired of people keep asking am I a lawyer yet so..here we go 2021 month by month I’m taking you by storm!!
Hey ladies and gents! so for today’s challenge I decided to share this amazing book that I read while in book club in either middle or high school. This book shined a light on a prevalent issue that has been within the black community: colorism . Colorism is defined as a prejudice or discrimination especially within a racial or ethnic group favoring people with lighter skin over those with darker skin. To be light skinned has been looked at as being more attractive and accepted by society while being darker skinned is looked at as being aggressive and less attractive. I believe this stemmed from slavery times. Light skinned people were known to be described as being “fair skinned” like what does that even mean?? it appeared that they were more preferred than the darker complexions which created this thing that being light is better. there was a silent war going on in the midst of the blacks light vs dark. There was a time where I had a complex about my complexion. Most of my siblings were lighter than I was so it was a thing that I was darker, it was always a joke. I was often reminded that I was darker. I was called a black something by someone. I honestly didn’t understand why?. The complex though didn’t come from my family, it came in middle school. It just seemed like the light skin girls with the “good hair” got the guys. I was never the one approached ..always the friend of the girl who was approached. I will say that later on I truly understood why that actually was though (a blog for another day honey lol) so thankfully that complex didn’t stick for long lol its good to know that melanin in all its shade of beauty is being celebrated and all blacks are starting to dismiss the notion that one tone is better than the other.
This week has been a week. I call myself trying to workout from home. The youtube video I chose CLAIMED that it was for beginners but I beg to differ, left me with thighs feeling as tight as a pickle jar top so, I decided to just go for a walk twice a week lol. In my mind I have also fought off fears of what is to come, doubts of living up to the “height of being a true christian”, and even frustrations of things not going my way. I felt inadequate, that I just couldn’t deal. I had in mind just to huddle up to myself in my room…close my black out curtains and turn my phone off ..just isolate myself and throw a good ole pity party but then I just got up and started moving. That quick my mind shifted, I forgot what I went to do but just doing something took my mind away from the negative thoughts that were parading in my head..I believe I eventually went to pray which as always helped even more. I looked up at my sticky note that read ” God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power of love and of a sound mind” and I realized that this race is an everyday fight. It’s a war full of battles won and sometimes lost. Regardless of what flaws, mistakes or shortcomings we fall into, we have to get ourselves together and keep going. Me? I tend to beat myself up from time to time not giving myself enough credit. I’ m obviously a threat if satan is tryna keep me down with lies of doubts, fears and frustration. I am a force to be reckon with even in the midst of my trials and hardships #savage. I say don’t stay down forever. Know God for who he has been IN YOUR LIFE .Try to pick yourself up as fast as you can, it’s not about feeling low cause that happens IT’S LIFE ..the key is not staying in that low place. Satan has a way of trying to make us believe that we are nothing, that we aren’t made of the good stuff to endure enough to see our expected ends. He’s quite creative i’ll give him that but its temporal because of the power, of the love and of the sound mind God has given us. We can declare how things go, we can tell satan and his lies where to go and how to get there. We can keep in mind that God loves us regardless of the mistakes we make or have made and we can take back our peace! y’all the truth sets us free. Once you realize that you don’t have to keep sitting and taking whatever satan throws at you including the kitchen sink, you’ll start to fight, you’ll understand that you too are a force to be reckon with. Reintroduce yourself, you are more than a conquerer.
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love and of a sound mind2 Timothy 1:7 (KJV)