Good Afternoon y’all, check me out, check me out two blogs..well posts in one week!! I wanted to give a snapshot of what Lawton, my trainer has me eating for right now. The red bottles have protein shakes in them, I have 3 shakes a day. So far I am two pounds down so …I am here for it lol.
It’s been awhile but anyway…
It’s a lot going on, a lot of chaos, frustration, anger, confusion, misunderstandings..the list goes on. We all know what the issues are whether we agree on them or not. I just wish there was a sound way to getting a resolution. I am angry that we all can’t get along. I am frustrated that we all are all over the place feeling the same way but not on one accord to getting the issue solved. To be honest I don’t know what to believe. Riots are going on but then I hear that they are instigated by people…people leaving random bricks on the street where NO CONSTRUCTION IS GOING ON???..people …. apparently paying other people to loot businesses making it look on the news as if black people are going off as “animals” and the news hardly broadcasting the positive..the peaceful protest where policemen are shaking hands, praying , and even marching with the public…its like social media loves the drama. I don’t know what to think. I do know point blank period racism and prejudice against blacks is raging at an all time high. People are REAL comfortable these days letting us know how they been seeing us all along. Police brutality has indeed illustrated that..CLEARLY while those in charge of law and policies silently permit this to go on. I do know that I want this to end with a true change..some type of resolution..revolution…or some law or movement that won’t be forgotten. Something everyone won’t forget. Is this wishful thinking? is this far fetched? it is unchangeable???..it seems that way but that won’t stop me from saying something even praying forreal for something to break. I need sanity cause this right here….like every other black person I am half way exhausted…like what more do we need to do?? don’t give me that black on black crime stuff either cause that’s different and invalid when it comes to this! and y’all know it.. gang violence does not justify the law enforcement(those in charge of making us safe) killing us voluntarily and violently OR viewing and treating us like we some beast on the loose. That’s a whole other discussion that is needed..gang violence that is however this is the present and a bigger issue and being aware to me aint enough. Someone ..something has to happen NATIONWIDE soon…….again I don’t know what to do or think at this point …when someone comes up with something …let me know I’ll just keep making awareness and praying until then …I don’t know what else to do..
That’s all .
This week has been a week. I call myself trying to workout from home. The youtube video I chose CLAIMED that it was for beginners but I beg to differ, left me with thighs feeling as tight as a pickle jar top so, I decided to just go for a walk twice a week lol. In my mind I have also fought off fears of what is to come, doubts of living up to the “height of being a true christian”, and even frustrations of things not going my way. I felt inadequate, that I just couldn’t deal. I had in mind just to huddle up to myself in my room…close my black out curtains and turn my phone off ..just isolate myself and throw a good ole pity party but then I just got up and started moving. That quick my mind shifted, I forgot what I went to do but just doing something took my mind away from the negative thoughts that were parading in my head..I believe I eventually went to pray which as always helped even more. I looked up at my sticky note that read ” God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power of love and of a sound mind” and I realized that this race is an everyday fight. It’s a war full of battles won and sometimes lost. Regardless of what flaws, mistakes or shortcomings we fall into, we have to get ourselves together and keep going. Me? I tend to beat myself up from time to time not giving myself enough credit. I’ m obviously a threat if satan is tryna keep me down with lies of doubts, fears and frustration. I am a force to be reckon with even in the midst of my trials and hardships #savage. I say don’t stay down forever. Know God for who he has been IN YOUR LIFE .Try to pick yourself up as fast as you can, it’s not about feeling low cause that happens IT’S LIFE ..the key is not staying in that low place. Satan has a way of trying to make us believe that we are nothing, that we aren’t made of the good stuff to endure enough to see our expected ends. He’s quite creative i’ll give him that but its temporal because of the power, of the love and of the sound mind God has given us. We can declare how things go, we can tell satan and his lies where to go and how to get there. We can keep in mind that God loves us regardless of the mistakes we make or have made and we can take back our peace! y’all the truth sets us free. Once you realize that you don’t have to keep sitting and taking whatever satan throws at you including the kitchen sink, you’ll start to fight, you’ll understand that you too are a force to be reckon with. Reintroduce yourself, you are more than a conquerer.
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love and of a sound mind2 Timothy 1:7 (KJV)